the feeling SO strong

You hold my hand very tied, till i feel pain...
AT tat moment...all memories came out...
i tot i had forget it..i tot i had totally delete from my mind...
but i am wrong....i am scaring, i dun knw why you hold me so pain..
i dun knw wat you wan do to me....slap me? or you wan treat me like him treat me before?
I am trying to belive you are not...
But i also start to run away from you....
You never knw....how i feel before...its so pain when he hit on me...
You tot is a joke....and i tot i can forget about it...
but I fail.....it had lasting for so long....till now...
i hate him...can you please dun give me this feel?...
You are so important for me...